"The "eroticizing" of HIV has become much more pronounced in the last 5-7 years. For some, the premeditated act of potentially giving or receiving the virus heightens sexual pleasure for them. They go around using terms like "breeding" and "seeding", getting guys "pregnant" etc...as if this act links these men in some sort of unbroken bond. A brotherhood of sorts. I don't claim to understand it, but those are the facts.
Another fact, however, is one that footlicker alluded to in his original post: the reality of living with the disease. For these men, the idea of "acquiring" the disease seems to be the focus without any regard for the actual "possession" of it. In other words they seek it out as fantasy but most times are not prepared for the realistic damage it causes to their bodies, psyche, or lives. I hear talk of a sense of "freedom" that these men think the infection will bring them in terms of sexual behavior, but that couldn't be further from the truth.
Here is the truth:
There isn't such thing as freedom in relation to this disease. You are a prisoner to medications. You are a prisoner to public perception to the disease itself. You are a prisoner of doctor visits, potential opportunistic infections, and therapy failure due to resistance issue. We don't even need to talk about the fact that your risk of dying from cancers, heart disease and stroke increases dramatically post infection. Oh, and shortened life span kind of puts a damper on things as well.
Rather than the world opening up for you sexually, be prepared to spend more time in the fantasy of having sex rather than the actual act itself because the overwhelming majority of the world DON'T want the infection you worked so hard to get, and will in most cases avoid that type of contact with you. Just look around this forum. How many men have posted here discussing their struggles regarding relationships, sex partners, difficulty finding love and acceptance, and of course fear of disclosure regarding their status? Now that you so proudly and actively sought out the disease, do you intend to trumpet your success in getting it to everyone you meet? I doubt it.
THAT is the reality of this disease. Not so glamorous after all is it?"
Another fact, however, is one that footlicker alluded to in his original post: the reality of living with the disease. For these men, the idea of "acquiring" the disease seems to be the focus without any regard for the actual "possession" of it. In other words they seek it out as fantasy but most times are not prepared for the realistic damage it causes to their bodies, psyche, or lives. I hear talk of a sense of "freedom" that these men think the infection will bring them in terms of sexual behavior, but that couldn't be further from the truth.
Here is the truth:
There isn't such thing as freedom in relation to this disease. You are a prisoner to medications. You are a prisoner to public perception to the disease itself. You are a prisoner of doctor visits, potential opportunistic infections, and therapy failure due to resistance issue. We don't even need to talk about the fact that your risk of dying from cancers, heart disease and stroke increases dramatically post infection. Oh, and shortened life span kind of puts a damper on things as well.
Rather than the world opening up for you sexually, be prepared to spend more time in the fantasy of having sex rather than the actual act itself because the overwhelming majority of the world DON'T want the infection you worked so hard to get, and will in most cases avoid that type of contact with you. Just look around this forum. How many men have posted here discussing their struggles regarding relationships, sex partners, difficulty finding love and acceptance, and of course fear of disclosure regarding their status? Now that you so proudly and actively sought out the disease, do you intend to trumpet your success in getting it to everyone you meet? I doubt it.
THAT is the reality of this disease. Not so glamorous after all is it?"
